It’s time. Shit is changing again and a new chapter is about to commence.
I feel like I’ve been acting like I got more time, I don’t
The argument to stay is strong, and the argument to continue with my original plan of leaving is also strong..
I think I’m settling on the fact that I just have to trust my instinct, but I honestly feel like I’m larping a bit and carrying this larp energy is going to be a fucking downfall…
Im moving back truly for 2 reasons:
- I miss my family and want to spend a season of quality time with them
- I need to take a real fucking swing with true backing… emotional, financial, and in Austin the candle burns dry quickly
Text Orph is almost ready, and this is the best shot that I have rn… Its compelling and convenient and i believe in it..
Running it from day one base will be $800+.. Then like $250 plus monthly, this is excluding the costs for marketing which will be much much more… These are real costs that I just couldn’t be able to sustain living alone in Austin and working at Lift..
I’m going to have about 4000 to work with to make Orph successful.
But what does success even mean? To me lowk right now it feels like breaking even. It feels like the moment that I made true internet money. It means being able to scale this from anywhere in the wrld.
I’m going all in, but it doesn’t really feel that way. It almost feels like something that I’m just doing and that’s just unfair bc its THE thing that I’m doing rn..
Maybe it’s that I subconsciously am preparing myself to fail. I’ve failed with Amazon FBA, I’ve failed with a vending machine business, I’ve failed with Phib coin, I’ve failed with Brotein, I’ve failed with Rankett… at a certain point it almost feels like I’m just not cut out for this shit, but something in me won’t allow it..
I can’t be preparing for failure, that’s doing a disservice to myself and my journey..
Maybe Orph does fail, but you would never know if you don’t go all in. You need to go all in or just don’t go at all. There is no halfsies on this shit..
Anyways, I just need to continue reminding myself that the only failure is not trying and defeat only comes with giving up…. We are going to make this real, will my reality
We are going to do this Yahir. I know you believe this, the basis to believe in this is nothing except that you aren’t here by accident. And all of the struggles that you have faced have been met with grace and strength. You are strong and this will be manifested